Friday, May 7, 2010

Dear God,

Today, in the middle of praying, I wondered why I pray.

If divinity is within me and I am one with it, then it seems like praying distances me from the oneness. Separates me. It is “me” praying to “God.”

Perhaps the distinction is necessary because I am also human and the prayer is coming from the human part going to the divinity within me. It is a form of surrendering to my higher self. I ask that God watch over my sister in her time of need, I ask that God protect me as I drive, I ask that God guide my actions and words so they are said and done with love.

As I think about it, praying to me is like setting my intentions. A powerful way to align myself with my highest good.

If I discover myself dreading a situation, I realize I have negative expectations and I reset my expectations for a positive outcome by creating AN INTENTION. Then the auto-response from my inner five-year-old or my inner teenager doesn’t kick in to unconsciously create the outcome. Any unhealed wounds don’t get to repeat their unhelpful patterns. My intentions guide my emotions, my interactions with others and my healing toward the best possible outcome available to me at the time.

Another way to say it is that prayer and intention align my lower self with my higher self. My ego with my authentic being.

This is the purpose of meditation for me. When I meditate, I connect to my inner divine spark. I AM. I dissolve my human self into the divine. I merge with the oneness, with everything, with bliss on a quantum level. This is my path. Surrendering my human self to UNITE with the divine.

There --no prayers separate me from who I really am.
There -- I am pure joy, love and abundance.
There -- I am one with all.

Of course, it's easy to be blissed out by myself in bed, with my eyes closed, breathing deeply. The key is to carry that state with me into every moment, every interaction, every eyes-open breath. And I am on the path to bring that state of oneness into waking and walking consciousness.

My future God-self.

For now, I will continue with my path of intention, prayer and meditation. Praying to be cleansed of limiting beliefs and misunderstandings. Creating intentions to reside in my loving, experience epiphanies and enjoy each moment. And meditating to connect to the oneness. I will consider prayer as a way to connect to the divine, not as a separation from Him. Until he and I are one.

Oh, and Dear God, thanks for the ride.